keep holding on

i believe in science, believe in theories, believe in any outcome from proved experiments...............................but i doubt about gods................................



i'm have a belief of my own.......being a buddhist, i was taught that every followers should only do good to others, and others would do the same to you too, that's karma........but....uuhhh............okay, that's general stuff that everyone should practise that, but seriously........is it true????? do bad people get punished.......not in my case......


i'm not a philantropist......because i've seen a lot of ugly circumstances from the very first day i was born to this world.......those that were only done by mankind......although some are truly decent and kind people, but most of them are just not "humane" anymore to me.........okay, if not including wars, starvation, chaotic political events.....but evilness of mankind has seemed to seep into the young fellow's mind and heart..........(because i felt it when i started elementary school, those biased views and unfair judgement, actually, it's kinda sad that i went through this at a very young age..........)

i wish i'm a pagan................haha....that wouldn't happen because that would offend my parents..........well, let the bygone be bygone..........if it weren't for those nasty stuffs happen to me, i would still be ignorant, it also shape my precocious mind..(i dare to say this though......)

well, i will not lose faith in you, mankind...(or maybe society.....)........i know somewhere out there..... have people who have genuine trust and can really treat all of us as one..........it's maybe just a matter of time i will meet these people............