dying?

“so happy I could die” by lady gaga…….

I like it…..but I prefer her “I like it rough”, it’s just so cool……I mean the way she express herself with music…….

The song reminds of me when I was still a young ignorant kiddo…..

Although it’s a dance music, but the lyrics kinda mixes my feeling whenever I listen to it…

Honestly!!!!! I would really want to remain as my daddy’s and mommy’s little girl!!!! Awww……they just “sayang” me so much!!!! But my brother interfere…..oohhhh….go away, they are mine…..(this was my thought when I was young…haha…silly..silly…)

I would get jealous whenever daddy bought bro new toys….why I didn’t get one too….then I would end up long gloomy face, and don’t want to face dad….

And dad would tickle my tummy and I laughed…..(no wonder I still scare of tickling..)..these were still freshly imbedded in my mind till this day…..

There was once my mommy had terrible fever, and it had lasted for several days…..i was of course worried….even broke down in tears….she promised me to get better and will treat me ice cream if only I get good grades….(now I know why I hate studying but still strive hard……although it should only work that time, it has somehow become the unbreakable curse….haha….)

They are not highly educated, don’t really have a clue on how to educate me and my bro (that’s why I was like a wild child…..friends were afraid of messing with me…hehe..)……but i have a thought of dying for them if I have to…..(when I was young….maybe it was my “precocious” thinking……)

I’ve changed….who doesn’t?!

Teens….several terms can be related to them: rebellious, stubborn, daring, not obedient all the time, extrovert, curious…..

I did fired back at them sometimes…..

But my affection for them remains the same…….

Hug them if you want to….(don’t think that you’re forced to, just think about it, how long have you not doing that????.....i bet it’s long enough that you have forgotten the warm embracement that they cuddled you in baby clothing…)

p.s. I act cute in front of them sometimes (only them la…no one else..)…..hahahaha…….just to get their attention…..like I used to do it when I was young…..