Look before you fall............

woke up this morning with swollen eyes......wanna know why??? hehe....last night i was chatting with an old friend of mine.....well, erm...we just suddenly turn out into good friends for some bizarre reasons......i met him at one of leadership programs, which was held at the Ipoh Hill city hotel few years ago......(i hate this kind of stuff, seriously....'cause they thought they say and do all the right things, and like directing the right paths for the "followers"......well, nobody's perfect..and i don't like being directed around.....gee....)..in order to please my parents, i just obey them.....but showed up there in bad mood....like being emo...and then there goes the talking and speech about being filial, responsible, all those moral values...blah blah blah....and then he (well, lets call him "Hansel"...i also don't know why....just the name fits him, not his real name....) passed me a note: "hi! i wonder you have the same thought as me to think they are all bullshit..."

i smiled at him....(well, you can rarely see me do that, not to mention in front of stranger some more..)...i secretly passed back the note: "ya!!! i'm here to meet these jerks in order to please my parents.." and the introduction began.....Hansel is from Ipoh too....but currently studying oversea...(so, we chat using msn......)....we didn't even have each other's cell phone numbers, just email address (which is good for me....scare someone intrude my privacy further).....we chat many things since we met, of course in msn.......sometimes we even confide secrets too......but not as much as towards my closer friends.....

recently, we just got more intimate.....(not erotic feeling like you readers would think...no no...please...haha....in more friendly way..)......Hansel is a real nice guy!!! a real friend who sets friendship as his main priority....(well, as for his girlfriend....that's the special case here....hehe...).......well, you may notice: why am i writing these down.....what's so interesting about this "Hansel" guy?? is just ordinary things happen between both of them.....why lynette would spend time chatting with him?? generally, she don't like chatting....does her work.....or maybe you would think: lynette only approaches attractive people.....she has such big ego that she won't like us...the mediocre.....

well, i don't really get along fast with strangers......you can say i'm quite choosy in befriending someone....so, sorry if i don't talk much...and please don't judge me by my appearance.......maybe you readers should know the kind of feeling that i have.........................being close, but actually not...........being intimate, not romantic..............fond of him.....but not ****......(this is not harsh word....i wanna type it out but just can't......struggling).........i can clearly distinguish my feelings, so don't be suspicious......see...i just mentioned so-called his name 3 times only (the other one time does not count).....

he'll remain as a true friend in my heart........well, his ranking is after my closer girl friends....hehe....