leaving

well.....here it goes...my 1st blog....there's something that i really want to express so much but i can't really do it in front of my family members......(ok, readers, I'll gonna write a sad story....if not sad enough for you readers, then i would not comment about that)...my grandpa's gonna leave.............soon..........it'll be the first time ever in my life that someone's gonna leave me....my grandma (my dad's mom) passed away before i was brought to this world, well, when i recalled about the feelings that she passed away when i was 14, i was emotion-less....but now have to face the circumstance that grandpa is dying, i could just broke down in tears.......(i admitted, tears rolling down my face....the keyboard wet....)....although i wasn't that close to him when he was healthy, i can feel the sudden pain in my heart that someone i loved will be gone...sooner or later.... the same feeling goes to my aunt (dad's younger sister).....she was diagnosed the final phase of lung cancer........it was truly shocking as she didn't show any symptoms before....i really don't wanna accept this truth...it's awful!!!!!!!!!! way beyond my imagination that i may now have to accept two relatives leave before me.......i don't wanna cry in front of my mom and dad.......they were speechless when receiving the 2 shocking news................but afterwards, they pretend there's nothing happen...continue working....doing chores....well, in my heart, i can see through them......they wanna be strong for all of us....me and my brother....and other relatives too....so, i will not shed even a tear in front of them....mom's gonna accept grandpa's leaving.......dad's gonna do the same for my aunt...................all my family members will do the best and support them till the end............no matter what................i'll do my part to cheer things up, at least.........even thought it may not help much in this kind of situation here,but this is all i can do.............it also help strengthen my reasons to become a doctor (well, in the time being...).........i will not forget the kindness in these people.....the joy they brought to all of us.......i also learn to appreciate people around us after all this..........i don't wanna regret afterwards..........to all readers here.........cherish your loved ones........

xoxox............lynette yuan..........